life update (2025)

 9:18 pm

july 21, 2025

the dark side of being a bad bitch in the music industry

    there comes a time in someone's career where an artist needs to be discerning and careful with the people she surrounds herself with. i'm glad that somehow, i was able to learn that lesson but i'm afraid i was a little bit late. earlier in my career, i made the mistake of trusting people who aren't worthy of being trusted and now i'm struggling with the repercussions of the actions that i made during my earlier years as an artist. i can try and pretend like this shit doesn't bother me but it does. it has caused a lot of turmoils within the relationship i have with my employees, my team, and myself. but you know what? this is all a challenge for me to overcome. in this career, you should be a beast. they won't respect you when you're not taking charge of your career which is why i am now working hard to outshine all of them.

3:15 am

december 18, 2025

reclaiming my power and redemption arc

    there is absolutely nothing these bitches can do to hinder my destined success. a few months ago, i was devastated about what was happening to me and my career. i have suffered a lot of months experiencing pain and sadness due to the fact that i felt like i couldn't do anything to create change in my life. until one fated day at the last week of september, things had officially changed. my former distribution decided to give up hope and take down all of my songs from streaming platforms. everywhere. it was really shocking that they decided to do that without giving me an advanced notice, but eventually, i was just relieved and happy that they did. i was prepared for that moment, and i am happy that i was able to bring back all of my songs so that i could reclaim that moment. 

    i am now finally free. i have been liberated from the hands of that balding half-white man. this isn't my first rodeo of being in a really toxic and controlling relationship. so what's the difference between this and my past boyfriends? nada. i knew what the fuck he was doing and i wouldn't stand for the abuse that i went through. on another note, a bitch who i thought was my friend decided to side with the enemy. opportunistic bitches are everywhere. luckily, i am secure with my self again. i am now happy that i have reclaimed my power and my self-assurance. there is nothing badder than a bitch who's bad and knows it. i admit i was naive. i was immature to think that people are as kind as me. that people aren't plotting against my downfall. that people aren't as calculating as i think. because i see the world as i see myself. i see myself as person who wants to make an honest living. as a person who wants to make the most out of every little thing. as a person who knows that life is way too precious to waste on petty and shallow things like money. i might be materialistic, but i have never taken advantage of others just for the sake of material possessions. i am a person who wants to change my life and also make a positive change on the lives of the people surrounding me. 

    there are a lot of instances where i always experience being baited or hooked to harmful situations and i would always fall for it, given the fact that i am too trusting for my own good, and it ain't always pretty. but these situations always have something in common. the jig would always be up. i would almost always realize what the fuck's going on and i would do my favorite thing to do to counter all these situations quietly. i would play chess. not literally. figuratively, as i, myself, do not know how to actually play chess. there would always be someone letting me know about what's really happening, or i would figure it out on my own. i'd like to believe that i'm the universe's favorite child. i'm always guided by the angels, or my ancestors, and i always end up with the winning hand. (am i talking about poker now? lol i don't know how to play that either) this has happened so many times and after that, the universe would always remind me that i made the right decision afterwards because i will encounter these people once again through different ways like word of mouth or social media, and i often see them suffering. enduring the pain that i have endured when they hurt me. 

you could say, i'm quite lucky. 

i always get the last laugh.

and i wouldn't have it any other way. 

sincerely yours,

ximena fucking rosa.