singularidad

Angelica is HAPPILY single.

i used to loath being single, "what the fuck is this shit? this shit ain't fun???" 

i hated not being able to have a man to be with. i was dependent like that. 🤢 i kept on hoping and hoping that this cute guy that i'm kinda into, is gonna take me seriously and pop the question. most of the time, they ask me to be their girlfriend. occasionally, i say "yes" to the really cute ones but it just doesn't end up good. just like what big sean said, "when something's too good to throw away, you either let it go bad or go away." aND I FUCKING LIVE BY THAT. i done had way too many two-week-bullshit that taught me one thing. i should have one set of standards before i enter a new relationship. God had His ways whenever this shit happens. He either makes the guy ghost me whenever i'm too chicken to leave him....or hand me another option to cheat with so i could have a valid excuse to leave. sometimes when i spot dealbreakers/red flags that i'm too afraid to address, i cheat. that seemed like the only scapegoat when things don't end up the way i planned them to. 

and that, mí amigas, is a bad habit. it's karmic, and it's one of the reasons why i'm single now. no regrets though, but i should really stop doing it. 

the thing is, i've learned now. i love being single. i love being alone from time to time and being able to flirt with every guy i want without the attachment, commitment, and the idea of being called a cheater. 

like i get it, being babied and being with your "favorite person" is cool and all but can't i just be with everybody i want? when i'm alone, i'm second to no one else. that's why being single is fun, kids. stop obsessing over guys and start working on yourself. i know i'm not the only one who went boy-crazy in middle-high school. now that i know better, i live better. i don't wanna go through the vicious cycle of meeting people and leaving them after 2-3 weeks, it's just exhausting. i'm doing better now. 🥰 you should too.