𝒅𝒂𝒅𝒅𝒚 𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒖𝒆𝒔

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Date: September 23, 2020 6:16 a.m.

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    in this blog, i'm gonna talk about MY daddy issues. prepare to be mentally fucked because this can be a lot to handle to most of y'all normal bitches with complete families and shit. i was a humanities and social sciences (humss) student in senior high school and we took general psychology class because apparently it was part of our specialization units. in gen. psych, we encountered the stages of development and every theory under it. i'm not gonna go in-depth with that but let's just say i've got fucking issues. unfortunately, (fortunately lmao) i grew up without a dad. yes. i never knew him, never met him in person, never got to see him whatsoever. soooo, i didn't really have much male role models in my life because all i knew was i ain't need a father, i've got my grandpa and my uncles to "stand" in that position. that's what my family led me to believe. which is actually pretty cool. BUT the thing is, now that i'm going through adolescence and stuff like that, i don't know shit about intimacy with men. 

    i had to 'blindly' react to male interactions through my teenage years because i never really knew how to act around the opposite sex...it has always been so awkward. i know a lot of y'all bitches can relate to me. so when it comes to dating and heterosexual relationships, i used to NOT know the difference between a guy being nice to me because we're friends, and a guy being nice to me because he wants to flirt with me. i never had a 'fuckboy' manual. i became friends with actual fuckboys ( i even dated some of them) just so i could have a vast knowledge towards the male species. 

    i'm not totally putting the blame on my 'father complex' but having no dad in the picture has LOWERED my standards in men. like literally below the fucking ground. i'm not even kidding, give me a man that compliments me every once in a while, buys me food and stays???? i'm fucking sold. hell, give me a man that just stays and i'll go fucking wild!!! 

    oh, and another fucking thing. junior high school me fetishized the fuck outta older men. i swear to god, i was 17 dating 21-year-old college boys because i thought it was fucking hot when in fact it was pedophilia. i was lowkey being groomed lmao. back to the fucking point i couldn't see shit clearly because i was in dire need of a strong male figure in my life even though i was continuously convincing myself that i don't need any-fucking-body. in short, i had horribly low standards when it came to men.

There are three different kinds of daddy issues so fasten your fucking seatbelt because you might be one (or all) of these.

1. Anxious-Preoccupied 

People with this attachment type may be anxious, crave closeness, but feel insecure with their partner leaving them. 

2. Dismissive-Avoidant

People with this type may have trouble trusting others for fear that they'll be hurt.

3. Fearful-Avoidant

People with this type may feel unsure about intimacy and tend to run away from experiencing difficult feelings. 

in conclusion, your honor, i'm all of em. this is why i'm single. i'm also toxic as well but let's blame that on my father complex. *wink*